
August 27, 2008
I'm ready to deliver!

August 26, 2008
Anticipating Motherhood
10. Breastfeeding/ providing nourishment for someone I love. It's exciting to think that a woman's body is built to provide such a wonderful gift such as nourishment for another life (while it's in and out of her body). I also look forward to the bonding time of breastfeeding.
9. Bath time - water has always played a huge role in my life (from taking a shower (calming me) to kayaking on a stormy day (exciting me)); I like to think that it comes from my Hawaiian background. I'm excited to show him how much fun he can have in the water and also when he's older teach him the importance of water.
8. Reading to him. This is something I've sort of already started. When I received some of the books from the baby shower I read them to him and it felt like he was responding to the stories (especially The Giving Tree). I remember my dad used to read to me when he tucked me into bed, that's a memory I cherish always and would like to continue that tradition. It's a time to help him relax and expand his mind, from the womb until he says, "Mom, I can tuck myself into bed now."
7. Going for walks. Walking is my favorite activity EVER! It's something I do wherever I go and in whatever mood I'm in. It's what helped me lose weight in Norway and what helps me stay in shape for the baby's delivery. It's also a time for thinking or making wishes. One particular walk with my best friend Megan resulted in one of my wishes coming true - my dad's heart transplant. I'm excited to walk him in his carrier, stroller, him holding my hand, to walking side by side, showing him the beauty of the world and that there's still beauty in the "ugly".
6. The "uh-oh" moments: wetting his bed, falling off his bike, accidentally or purposefully breaking something, not getting a good grade on a test, etc. I'm excited to teach him that it's ok to make mistakes as long as he learns from them, even if he has to learn from them twice. As Dory the fish would say, "Just keep swimming."
5. The "Aha!" moments: walking, learning how to use the toilet, riding a bike, driving a car, finding out what being in love is, and the list goes on. Hopefully, I'll be able to catch them on camera.
4. Teaching him the importance of family and that family is what you make it. It's important to understand that he will have so much love from his family: grandma & grandpa, aunts & uncles, the extensive list of cousins, and my friends. I want him to understand that family isn't always about blood (though it is fun to know your ethnic background) but the natural ability to love someone unconditionally - those who you're able to do that with are your family.
3. Fixing his "boo boos": letting him know that I will always be there no matter what. I will kiss his scrapes even if they're on his bum (of course until he's of a certain age) and clean and bandage them. I want him to know that there's always someone to pick him up when he falls, especially me.
2. Snuggle time. I'm so excited to finally hold him and kiss him. I'll be excited for those nights when he can't sleep on his own and needs the warmth of his mommy's body to help him sleep. Even now I cradle my belly and tell him I love him, to his first breath in this world I will hold him, even when I'm not longer physically present on this earth hold him I will still cradle him with my love.
1. Saying "I love you" everyday. Need I say more?
August 21, 2008
August 19, 2008
Birthdays, baby showers, doctor appointments, etc....
My beautiful baby sister and her kind French man (he's only allowed to speak french to le bebe)Katharine, Deborah, and me (I look swollen because I am!)
Aunt Lizzie & Mary Ellen
The cupcakes - oh yum! The cards.
The abundance of gifts!
As for my health; everything looks good. Healthy heart = healthy baby. I had my ultrasound today (I started writing this blog a few days ago but this will be finished today - Friday, August 22, 2008) and it was just a biophysical so no fun ultrasound pictures...sorry! I was so disappointed this morning that I almost hissed at the technician but it's not her fault so I resisted. I got to see how big he is: his head is low and I mean low, I got to see some "belly breathing" and watch him move as I felt his kinetics. I'm hoping for some photos next week and if so I will for sure post them. Other than that I'm just uncomfortable by the end of the day - my feet are like elephant feet...I have a hard time putting on socks and tying my shes. I sleep on my couch now so that I stay comfortably on my side. I figure I've had a pretty easy pregnancy since it was just last week that I gave up heels and for the past month and a half I've been using only maternity clothes.
All that I can ask for now is for a healthy delivery for my little fella.
August 18, 2008
Coming soon....
August 4, 2008
33 Week OB Appointment
This news doesn't bring me down deep - it just pierces my heart. The doctor was sweet enough to mention that I don't look as though I have a high BMI - but looks aren't everything now are they doc?
Other than that everything is progressing gracefully - the little fella likes to catch me off guard and give me a good strong kick or do somersaults inside of me. The kicks are much more comfortable than the squirming.
That's the news as I know it for now. More updates and photos to follow.
August 1, 2008
Chanson du jour
"In the back seat" by Arcade Fire.
It's all about the howling. Most days I wish that I could just howl to the moon, or the smelly person sitting next to me on the train, or the creepy stranger who dares reach for a bump touch.
I wish I could slide on the bow that strokes the strings in this song. Sliding sounds really nice right now - but a more appealing playground gear is...the swing. Am I allowed to go back to 1st grade for two hours?
Anyway, the mournful lyrics of this siren song isn't what pulls me today...it is simply the boldness in the woeful sound. From the gentle taps of the piano keys (that I can seriously feel on my back) to the strong wails of Regine Chassagne makes me break free from my bier.